I have a deep sadness....it is the kind that just makes you feel so prickly and achey....all I want to do is cry, but I can not. There are moments in your life when you feel as though your life is over and you don't know how you can go on...I am in one of those moments.
I am no longer in HK....I am no longer at a job I love...I am no longer in a place that stimulates me and fills me with excitement....I am back in a place where I came from...the very roots of my childhood and the sadness from my childhood has been brought to the surface and I must face where I have come from.
And I am wondering who I am now...and what I am to do now...I feel more alone than ever...all my international friends are gone in other lands...I want to connect with people, but I feel like I can't, they don't want to listen to me or get to know me...they are consumed with their own little castles and families and technology...
I keep hoping to find a connection...hoping for love, but I am lost, unappreciated, alone, rejected, undervalued and invisible to these people...
