So my skype video hasn't been working lately. Every time I have skyped with my sister and her family or my parents I haven't been able to see them. In some ways this has been frustrating, because I love seeing my family and dear ones. Seeing them across the distance helps them feel closer and like you aren't so far away.
Well I was skyping last night with my sister and again I could not see her and the babies, but I could hear them. Lot's of funny baby talking going on that you can tell is communication even though it makes absolutely no sense. Lot's of playing noises and then whining noises too. hahah
My sister started playing the piano and singing. It was so beautiful. Yes, I may have not been able to see, but I could hear all those wonderful sounds. And the wonderful sounds comforted me, because they are the sounds of a family. When you live alone you don't have the sounds of other people in your daily life unless it is your neighbors baby crying, dog barking or late night piano practicing. Listening to those sounds comforted me, because it reminded me of when I was apart of a family and all the crazy family daily life noises that bustle about you. It made me feel like I was home.
Living alone has it's benefits, especially in a city of 8 million people...you gotta have your solitude. However, I am a family person and not having my own family creating their own family noises makes me a little sad. I surely never thought I would still be single, living alone in a foreign country at the very soon age of 34. I am so grateful for what God has chosen to give me, but if I had, had my way in the 3 past dead and over relationships, then I would be surrounded by babies and arguments and whining and dogs barking and piano practicing and lawn mowers...the sounds of a family...a family of my own.
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